As I looked at the date today I almost broke down and cried. Time has gone by so fast. Between sleep deprivation and postpartum depression I feel like I have missed most of these 6 months. How can I get it back? Someone please figure this out for me. Someone make a time machine. It has gone by way too fast. 6 months is half a year! My parents asked me yesterday "what day are you planning on doing her first birthday?"
FIRST BIRTHDAY?!
What!
How could this be happening? I want time to stop, or at least go a little slower so I can just snuggle my beautiful little girl and figure things out faster.Like, housework and other things don't matter as much as I thought they did. Right now I'm wishing my house was a disaster, because if it was then that would mean that I don't regret how I spent my time, it would mean that I would have spent the past 6 months snuggling my baby. What was I thinking? She is only a baby for so long. Starting today, I am changing my ways, there is going to be more snuggling and less worrying about other things, because in the long run the only thing that matters is that my children know how much I love them.
The song "You're Going to Miss This" explains how I'm feeling perfectly.
You spend your whole life just wanting to grow up and not being able to wait for the next phase in your life,
when really all we have to do is slow down and look at all the blessings we have right now.
I am going to miss this.
Even though my daughter is the worst sleeper in the world,
when she does sleep through the night,
I'm going to miss holding her,
having our little snuggle time in the middle of the night.
She wont want me to hold her forever,
One day I'm sure she will even be embarassed to call me "Mom"
So right now, I am going to enjoy the giggles,
the crying,
the wanting to be held,
I'm going to take it all in...
because they grow up so fast,
and the greatest gift I can give her now and forever is my time.
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| From this |
to this
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| and now to this... |
It goes by so fast doesn't it?
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